So this could be my life...

Two nights ago John and I went the big "spouses/girlfriends" Air Force meeting. John had brought up this meeting and invited me to come over a month ago and ever since I have been dealing with a constant anxiety about what this meeting could mean for us. The minute marriage and the whole husband and wife thing comes up, I feel a genuine itchy sensation. No, not like a good itch (is there really such a thing as a good itch?). More like "Oh my god, I can't breathe because I feel claustrophobic in my own skin!" itch. It's not that I am uncomfortable with the idea of being married; I just know I have so many other things I want to do before that time in my life. Let's just say I'm not ready, and I know John isn't either. So it seemed like a big step to be going to meeting where we would be forced to talk about what life would be like if we are still together five, ten, years from now.

Anyway, the meeting went really well. Neither of us cried, had an anxiety attack, or ended the relationship so that was good. It was basically just a question and answer session with John's Captain and his wife (who is coincidentally originally from Bloomington as well...of course, I think this is a sign in some way). They helped clear up a lot of misconceptions for me, and generally painted a very happy picture of the Air Force lifestyle. Among the highlights (or lowlights, whatever your perspective):

1. AF personnel generally get a new assignment every 3-4 years
2. AF personnel are generally required to travel on various missions adding up to what would equal a 4 month deployment every two years
3. The military hooks you up hardcore with benefits!
4. There is an AF "Wife Handbook" and and "Officer's Wives Club." FYI: How to properly serve tea and write formal correspondence to other spouses is covered in the handbook. Thank god.
5. Finding a job with every move sucks. But if you want a career, you can make it happen. (You just have to deal with the fact that you will never be in one job for more than a few years.)

Needless to say, the highlights/lowlights would mean drastically changing my "pre-John life plan." I'm currently digesting the information and pretending like I don't really have to deal with these huge life decisions.

Seriously, how genius is this title?

Did you really expect me (a celeb gossip, techno music loving PR chick) to have an intelligent sounding blog? :) Yea, me either.

I've been thinking about starting a blog for over a year now. I wanted to have one when I went to Australia to record all of the wild experiences I planned on having, but the beach clearly became more of a priority than typing on a computer. Then, when I got back, I thought my life was too boring to have a blog...I live in Ames; what do I have to write about that anyone would voluntarily want to hear about?!

I'm determined though. I've decided that it's not about where I live that determines how interesting my life experiences are. (I'm so profound!) Sure, if I was MOB and venturing around rural Africa, roaming with lions, I would have some pretty sweet stories. But even living in small town Iowa, I have managed to find myself in several intriguing situations (Ahem, crazy roommates...take your pick of which one in the past four years). So hopefully, someone will find me mildly amusing and make me feel cool by reading my blog.

In the legendary words of DJ KOOL, "I hope ya don't mind, let me clear my throat!" (I mean really, how perfect is this blog title?)

Editor's Note: Yes, there is already a blog titled "Let Me Clear My Throat" as well as "Clear My Throat." Therefore, the editor had to settle for a slightly ambiguous web address. On an unrelated note, the editor apologizes in advance for future rants including those about jobs, men, politics and annoying people.