Reunited and it feels so good...

So it's been a while. I know. I've left Iowa, graduated from college, moved home, started my first job, quit my first job, started another "first job", blah blah. Now, here I am, settling in quite nicely. From April to November, life has been a rollercoaster. I've had some emotional ups and downs navigating my goals and purpose for life after college. I can honestly say, I have NO idea what the future is planning to throw at me.

When I encounter that extreme uncertainty of the future, I've found I do best when I look back into my past to see how I've changed. Since college has ended, I've really been able to take a look at who I surround myself with. It's easy to see I have amazing friends, an extremely supportive family and for the past year, a partner I couldn't be happier about.

What I also realized is that I've had some pretty awesome people in my past that are no longer around for whatever reason. Since my move back to MN, I've reconnected with one of these people. One of my absolute best friends in high school was there for me every step of the way. Even though we were almost entirely different in personality, we found ourselves double dating every weekend with our respective high school boyfriends and quickly became close.

When she went to college a year before me, we lost touch. We had separate lives and I don't think we knew how to find common ground anymore. It was scary, but never awkward, coming back 5 years later to a friend I realized I kinda don't know anymore. She's changed and I've changed, but we've been able to acknowledge it and move on.

It's refreshing to know things don't always have to end badly. When I have ended friendships because I've felt they were toxic, it weighs on me. I had many times wondered if Molly thought I was a bad person or thought I had thrown our friendship away. It has brought me some sort of peace to know we have successfully reconnected and we're picking up where we left off. It's made me happy to know she still loves me and wants me in her life.

I want to continue to surround myself with people who make me feel good. In a time where I feel like my life can be whatever I want it to be, that's all I know.